Thursday, October 11, 2007

What A Week

Wow, this has been one intense week. Papers and group projects due. The reading. Being awake enough to be attentive in lectures. A very intense test on Wednesday that lasted almost 2 hours long. I have no idea how I did. Half way through my eyes were truly crossed and I had trouble concentrating. It was one of the hardest tests I have ever taken, and I still have 5 more semesters to go.

And if that wasn't enough, I had to give myself a shot today. In truth it was the tiniest possible needle and it really didn't hurt. Needles don't bother me too much, but it is somewhat difficult to stab yourself, no matter how small the weapon. I would have to say that I did a pretty good job overall, though there was some minor bleeding. I didn't really even think about it till later on when I was running and noticed my abdominal muscles were somewhat sore on my right side.

So even though Thursday starts my weekends I have done nothing all evening but work on a paper that is due on Monday that I don't feel good about at all (sometimes you just can't get it out) and I turned in two homework assignments via e-mail that are due tomorrow and Monday.

Crazy how it never stops. I find myself looking forward to Christmas break. Not so much because it is Christmas, but because I won't have anything due or looming above me that needs to be done. I am only 7 weeks in and already I can't quite remember what it was like to be completely free of external obligations. They said during orientation that week 6-8 would be when we really feel overwhelmed and would begin to question ourselves. Not me, I thought. Yes me, I say.

I have to work tomorrow at my former full time and now extremely part time job. I'm glad for this. On one hand I would love, beyond true description, to sleep in tomorrow and relax. But on the other hand, working helps me refocus, redirect, and remember why I'm doing all this. Seeing coworkers who are still in the trenches everyday, seeing patients who are fighting for their quality of life everyday, and seeing the sights, smelling the smells, all this grounds me - wakes me up. This is a positive thing.


~Joy Kaye~ said...

You are amazing. I just wanted you to know.


Shirley said...

Yes, you ARE amazing!

Love You!